Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Neglected Followers-Shame on Me!

When I became a mom, 7 1/2 years ago, I learned a few things about myself: I can love more deeply and unconditionally than I ever thought possible, I have a higher tolerance for bodily fluids than I could imagine and I can sacrifice my own needs and desires in order to serve another human being.

The other things I learned about myself are that I can be very self-focused, selfish and self-centered. That brings me to today's blog topic: My Neglected Followers.

Last night as I was checking in on my blog, wishing I had a few more followers (it's an ego thing), it occurred to me that I don't take good care of the followers I have. I don't blog regularly, I haven't posted an interesting photo in ages, I rarely respond to comments.  And the worst thing? I've hardly visited the blogs of my followers who have blogs. 

That's not very nice.

I wouldn't follow me!

If at this point, after hearing this shocking confession, you decide you need to delete me from your "following" list, I completely understand. There is only so much time in a day to read blogs anyway.  Why spend it on someone who has never bothered to visit you at your blog? However, if you decide to stay with me, I promise I will work harder to invest in our relationship. I'm going to be making the blog rounds so that I may learn more about you.

Thanks for sticking with me.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Using Child's Coping Mechanism

Do you remember when you were little and you didn't want someone to see you, so you closed your eyes? Because if you closed your eyes, you couldn't see anyone, and if you couldn't see them, then surely they wouldn't be able to see you. Or if you didn't want something to exist, you pretended it didn't exist so it would go away?

That is often how I "resolve" conflict. I think I'm doing it now, with regards to finding a job. My kids are in summer school for 5 weeks, then they have 4 weeks out of school and in the Fall they will return. Now is the time for me to find some way to earn money.  I'm not really looking forward to the job search. I haven't worked away from home since I became a mom, (with the exception of a brief stint at a retail store). I didn't like job hunting before I left the market and I'm certainly not looking forward to it after being away for almost 8 years!  And did I mention I'm 3 years away from the big 5-0? Yeh, my prospects sound a little bleak. So I'm pretending I don't really need to find a job and that someone will see my Etsy shop and just want to commission something from me for $1 million (or $10 million). I'll let you know how it works out, K?