I have to admit it.
I've been avoiding you.
Like the plague.
When I log in and see that it has been almost 3 months since my last post, instead of getting busy typing something interesting and clever, I just want to run like the wind. One of those coping mechanisms that isn't really working for me but I keep doing it anyway.
In my heart, I want to be the best blogger and Etsy shop owner. I want to be creative and funny and clever and organized. I want to have one of those blogs that is beautiful and interesting and full of good information for the multitudes. But you know what? Every time I come here (and every time I go to my Etsy shop for that matter) I just see what is left undone. The posts I haven't written, the photos I haven't taken and in the case of Etsy, the items I haven't listed. I just feel defeated and guilty for not doing what I say I'm going to do.
For a few hours this week, I considered shutting everything down. The blog, the shop, the face book and twitter... just take it all down and not be heard from (online) again. But I don't think that is really what I want to do. So I'm seeking help through an online blogging course. My hope is that I will get some perspective and information on how to improve my blog. I've also been getting some feedback about my Etsy shop so that I can make a better effort to sell things there.
So, if you are interested, I just wanted to check in to let you know that I haven't fallen off the face of the Earth. I'm in the process of figuring out what it is I want to do and then doing it.
Thanks for hanging in with me!